It's funny how a single picture can evoke so many memories...

Like this picture of the birds I took at the cemetery yesterday.  It reminds me of how fleeting life is, how quickly things change in the blink of an eye.

The thought of my family and how much has changed... 

losing my son; I can't even imagine what it would be like to have a 21 year old, and that's how old he would be.  How different our lives would be, I can only wonder...

My father, my kids grandfather;  its just not fair, the life he could have shared with them. The wisdom he possessed was something I haven't found in any other person in my life.  And losing him reminds me of the quote "Every death is like a library burning down" - there was so much more wisdom he needed to share with us.

Then the fact that I lost one brother and the surviving brother that I have chooses not to have a relationship with me and my family.  Sometimes I just can't wrap my brain around it.  And while I've learned to accept it and continue to read about narcissism and family issues, I know it is just one more thing that I need to learn from.

And so I keep plugging away, trying to look at all the change in our lives and think; what lessons are we to learn from this...